One way growth takes place is through creatively adapting to new challenges. It would be an understatement to say that this year provided opportunities to face unprecedented situations. Specific to my collegiate career, all classes were moved online mid-semester due to the pandemic. In abiding by COVID-19 protocols, every class would be held virtually for over a year. Remote learning came with its own unique challenges. I learned how much I truly thrive in an in-person setting by having the alternative be non-optional. I had to create new motivators and find joy in different things, ultimately contributing to my own resilience. Transferring to a new area of study can be difficult enough and I made the transition without ever stepping foot on my new campus or properly meeting my professors, academic advisor, or other students. I also achieved my goal of maintaining a cumulative GPA of 3.9. I’ve been continually working on recognizing my own accomplishments and capabilities, both of which were proven.

On the other hand, there were habits and goals I lost sight of throughout the year. The unanticipated struggles brought on by the pandemic took a toll on me that I needed to reflect on. One thing that changed most was my capacity for self-compassion. I always have great expectations for myself and what I can achieve, but those benchmarks don’t define me. I will make mistakes and will not be able to take on every project that crosses my path, and that’s okay. I must prioritize my well-being and take time to maintain a beneficial state of mind. Otherwise, I won’t be able to help others and be present for them in the best ways possible. That self-compassion will readily extend to others and my ability to act out of genuine empathy.

Another change that took place throughout the year is rooted in my outgoing nature. Distance learning brought out my desires for human interaction and connection more than I ever thought possible. I made efforts to meet new people and become involved in ways my past introverted self couldn’t begin to fathom. The physical lessening of one community would lead me to find a whole different one elsewhere. The importance of relying on those existing support systems also became highlighted by the pandemic. Accepting help is not a weakness and it can, in fact, strengthen relationships by turning vulnerability into trust. Part of me feels as though I missed out on a year of college. Facing the reality of having one year left as an undergraduate student, I’ve recognized how intentional I need to be about how I carry myself through it; however, this does not mean crafting an even more elaborate plan for the future and sticking to it. This pandemic has demonstrated the unpredictability of life and how our expectations will likely be far different than the actual course of events. While still holding true to my core values, I prepare to move forward with open-mindedness. I am truly excited to see where my newfound fluidity and adaptability take me.